showing up

Hey friends, hope all is ahhhmazing. Since I’ve been on maternity leave, I’ve been doing all the things… I’ve been trying to get Alba on a feeding schedule, going on playdates for Evelet, cleaning, asking for help, ugly crying, happy crying, taking the longest showers ever, sleeping in two hour increments, binge watching Schitt’s Creek, getting back to clients, planning business events and falling deeper in love with my baby girls everyday. (Just to name a few things) Times like these make me sit back and check in with myself….something I should do often. Having a newborn is hard on the mother. It’s beautiful, but it’s hard. It’s hard not to lose yourself underneath it all. But with allowing myself grace and time to grow, I’m feeling more like ME than ever. Yes, I have my moments but as long as I come back to my center, take a deep breath (or several) and remember my true self…. I can do this. I AM doing this!

Side Note: I purchased some oracle cards at the SHIFT CHARLOTTE EVENT that I read daily and have really assisted me. They are called: The Secret Language of Light by Denise Jarvie. I recommend these beautiful cards and the book it comes with to anyone; especially when you are on a new journey in life.

My mother has been coming over every weekend. I am SO GRATEFUL for her showing up for my family. She does a lot of cleaning but she also does the little things no one thinks about. I can’t explain it… all I can say is when she leaves, I feel cleansed too. I believe it’s because she does it out of and with love. It’s a feeling. And she loves bathing her grand babies. This past Sunday, I was able to capture her bathing Alba. I was only able to take a few and to me, they are priceless. I love my mother’s loving hands. Those hands have bathed, soothed and held myself, my siblings, my Evelet and now my Alba. Te amo. Mama.